Rank #1: Chapter 1: Not if, how
On the cusp of her 39th birthday, recently divorced Michelle struggles with a complicated new romance. A drunken tarot card reading returns her to 1999, when she first met The Scientist (soon to be The Husband) and all was filled with promise.
Rank #2: Chapter 15: The New World
Dancing, being Italian, a man in the kitchen and advice from an ex-husband...
Rank #3: Chapter 16: Sidelines
A favourite lover, the divorce office, a crazy request and a (not so sure) sure thing...
Rank #4: Chapter 18: He Exists
Begging God for a boyfriend, a man in a white shirt, floating on Cloud 9 and Destiny's Child...
Rank #5: Chapter 19: So It Goes
U2, unicorns, a journey to the red hills and the curse of Drew Barrymore...
Rank #6: Chapter 2: Why not?
The relationship with The Scientist proves harder than expected, and yet he surprise-proposes right when a huge world tragedy occurs. Michelle says yes, starting a chain of compromises as they plan a wedding and get married.
Rank #7: Chapter 3: The feelings I don't feel
The first four years of marriage are a happy, love-drunk time until The Husband delivers an ultimatum. Michelle reluctantly (at first) gets pregnant, and everything starts to change in her — physically and mentally.
Rank #8: Chapter 4: Impossible to see
Michelle struggles with the isolation of maternity leave and emptiness sets in as she feels less and less like herself. Just as she's about to return to work, there's a surprising event and everything changes again.
Rank #9: Chapter 28: Love after Love
Spiderman, a sexy cowboy, and making my way out of the wild, wild wood.
Rank #10: Chapter 26: Caution
Carpenter ants, cotton candy and a passionate declaration from The Man With the White Shirt.
Rank #11: Chapter 5: The bomb
By the time the baby is four, The Husband has become a stranger in his own home. There are arguments and few answers as to why. One day, Michelle finds a tell-tale umbrella and soon after, she's hit with the bomb called Affair.
Rank #12: Chapter 6: Fallout
In the wake of The Bomb, Michelle becomes a shell of her former self, and slowly spirals down, deeper and deeper into grief and straight into the arms of the monster, Loneliness.
Rank #13: Chapter 10: Forza
Michelle goes to Italy to be with the people that are, and the place that is, her anchor. The sea, soil and family ground her, and a new bond is made with her father. She returns to Canada with her life a big question mark.
Rank #14: Chapter 7: Protection
In the first weeks after The Bomb, friends, family, co-workers and strangers show kindness and support, and The Husband has a revelation about kindness too.
Rank #15: Chapter 27: Blow Away
Cloud 9, flight school, flying high. Then a sudden change of altitude.